A thought....

why make life complicated..................

do the thing if it's worth taking risk, then risk! when you think it's good to take chances now and not the next day then do it know.. most people and that includes me was too afraid to take risk, too scared to take chances and do the decision making now. why? because of the reason that they can't blame anyone if the game wouldn't work it out well! and no one can take the name blame..

if you think you still feel something for her/him and your too undecided to take one more chance then don't, if you risk then risk, it's a matter of making things surely good for you. If you say you don't then don't give so much explanation people might think you still want but afraid.. No one wins if there's no loser and vice-versa; life is a game plan and all we need to do is play the game and ready to take that challenge, if it works u win if it doesn't then accept the fact that u loose.

One I accept about life is that, take all the happiness then if your still unhappy then search for it, there's no ending in finding, it's a cycle that made the search so unpredictable.. In any ways we never satisfied in everything, if we got a short lived relationship we complain for we wanted to have a long good for lasting love-relationship ahead and when we get what we wanted we complain because it's too boring, nothing spectacular happens, that we were in the stagnant, stuck relationship..see? that's people, that's too human, and when all recovering is coming we want that person back to were they belong in our hearts.

I always had this funny thought that life is full of ironic circumstances and that situation is too funny when you look back and trace where it belongs...

why it works to take the risky part, me I always take risk of finding and having, I don't want to take where the river flows as they say, i don't want wind take me where does it want to take me.. I believe that taking a struggle to go somewhere you want to go is worth it that being there because wind blows you to where you are... I'm not against on going where the river flows and flying where the wind blows but then LIFE IS A BATTLE FIELD you have to fight for what you want, for what you like for what you think is for you and when things wont fit in or things wont leads you to the path that you want to take, a soldier knows when and where to cease a fire...

When you ask me if I am in the position where you are, if I would take chances? or would I fall back again... I'm not against in holding on, it's natural, it's a prerogative to make, it a choice because life is a choice happiness is a choice go were you are happy and fit in, but when it doesn't work why hold on? if in the first step it stumble, learn to take another step but when it doesn't then learn to let go..... If you're hurting but you're happy on that then go, why ask someone who doesn't understand what you feel? people can make advices but in the end of the day, you end up setting on that corner and the decision leads you there...

people are different, that makes us unique, people strive to understand but what matter is you know what you want, you know what you like, and you know what makes you happy... that's the main goal in life BE HAPPY.

me personally, I'm happy being the 3rd person of every story, I mean I'm happy seeing people happy and in love, I'm happy being sad or I'm happy being me... that's me. it's for the people to understand and people to take any choice to be with me or not. It's risk to be different but at least it's worth the risk...

To whoever you are and To you:

Take chances, If that makes you happy, Take steps just to make life more memorable; If you re still bitter about it then fix to make it sweeter, do the plan B if plan A doesn't work... I'm not the expert but I had this viewpoint as a girl, as woman, as a ex-lover as a friend, as a human...

TRUE HAPPINESS IS A LONG TERM HAPPINESS.. just take risk, experiment you just don't know what happen next but when you look back you can put a genuine smile in your lips saying; I've been there once and it makes me happy..

^______^

top 10 Reasons (why I'm weird/crazy/unique) or whatever they call it.

I know more about myself yet it takes weeks to get this notes done, hmmmm this is not an issue or a problem yet it gives me a headache composing this just-just notes.. I just feel like sharing this one in this notes ^_^

one of the weirdest things... anyways, I'm just too bored; I felt that I'm not sad (considering I'm a dramatic person) I'm not happy too...see i'm in between and usually tha's not me... trivia: most of the times, I'm the extreme to the extreme person. I t felt good !!!

whenever I extremely happy and when I'm sad I'm extremely sad. (i dunno if that's a good thingy or not but that's me).

Lets get going; here's the top 10 reasons.

1. Ethyl Alcohol Addict; I dunno where and when it started but I don't get a good sleep whenever I can't put on alcohol in my skin. if gurls can't sleep not doing a routine in their faces, me I'm different i can't sleep without this routine. ^_^ and guess my rooms smeels like a hospital but it soothes my nose anyways.

2. Coffee Addict; there is something on coffee that keeps my blood vessel relax and my soul unwind, yeah it settle my concious mind and makes me lov my bed. :) I usually drink coffee in any variety...sweet, no sugar, coffe with peanut butter, coffee with milo etc. and i consume more than 5 coffee a day well, I'm the only one who loves coffe in the family and when my aunt give us that box of coffe it means "it's for me" :)

"Coffee Addiction"



3. Noctornal; yeah, if animals are noctoral does this mean I am? dunno really. but I like to borrow the term and use it to modify my "wierdoness" . I'm so productive when all people are dead (ahaha joke) I mean ideas keep on running when all people are asleep like bats and owl. :) actually I had this biological clock of creativeness ahaha it's 10:00 pm to 2:00 am but I can stay up until 3 am kinnda----> ahaha I only know 2 peson who could stay up just for talking and texting.. it's Lab and Luvy (roselma and rica) :)

4. Cluttered-Full-Bed;(it's a need) actually everything is connected, because I got a nocturnal life style and thoughts running every night or when I'm at bed, notes, paper, pens, scratch thing and all those writing materials are on my bed. I sleep with them literally.

5. Obsessive Compulsive; (room attention). this is a reminders for my sisters and brother, I know exactly where things are place and when things are gone I know someone get it or touch it! creepy really but my room is my room. but technically it doest implies on our house just in my room and my things :)

6. Lunatic; (modifier) call it crazy in that way, it seems that I am much "sensi" (sensitive) if the full moon is up, nah i just notice it so well. nostalgic this time :P pretty well that the fullmoon and me connives that way and well luvy (rica) is on of that connection.ahaha yeah I'm not alone in this modifier.. rica owns this one too... and I usually feel like writing sad notes when monny (fullmoon) is staring at me in my window!

7. Running-Mind-Syndrome; {making words again :)} ahaha i must explain this so well... hmmm all minds are running and my mind is different it runs so fast, ( I wrote stories, poems and even conversations) and there are times that it pours so much that I cant even start something connected. hmm yeah myself needs an outlet to put on whatever things in my mind because when I won't write those words or scenes that pops out into my brainy I get restless.. ahaha i don't kow if thats the exact term for it. sometimes my brain and emotions don't connive. (its relly crazy but its true. :( ).

8. SpongeBob Personality; (this is funny) LoL. I love spongebob..but this one doesn't mean about SpongeBob the Square Pants....

I can't say I want this personality but it gives me something "I'm worth living here" kindda feeling. like a sponge I absorb, I stay; many times I usually absorb things. I use absorb as synonym of listening and staying if someone wants a talkies it maybe happy or sad. I absorb feeling and I want everyone feels good. (genuinely) everyone is welcome ahahaha but sometimes i choose who to listen, where to stay... I guess it's a matter of who wants or who let me stay. :)

9. In Love Of the Thoughts Of LOVe; I guess it's really me, (I'm a writer) even my works does'nt publish in any papers, I call myself a writer because qouting a book I've read. god's note: ( be a writer on youre own way and the way will be given). I Love love stories even it's not mine, i love happy romantic and even those tragic to fantasies. I had a world of my own about stories and I think LOVE is so great to have... I feel in love even not to the person, I feel in love on and in everything under the sunn.. and because I got the Love thoughts I also feel heartbroken even if no reason.. the two variety of LOVE, the two faces of LOVE are my friends and that makes me a realistic-romantic.....

10. ten??? hmmmmmmm I guess I take this one as mine. ^____^.... I'll leave this number 10 to all of you who wants to discover my weirdoness. well give a try!!--------- that makes me more exciting.

In life, in world; I know people get connected because their unique.. the totality of the person depends on what they want people get to know them..... it maybe crazy but it'c closer to reality or even the reality. ^_^ its me and no one can change the facts that I think I'm still the weirdest person I know so well even though its head whacking

xoxo..

tnx byway to Lab and Luvy and to Pooh ( ralph menor) for the ideas and to my inspirtion (ff)